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satanic panic in the attic.

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Mar. 22nd, 2009 | 05:04 pm

i have the weird sensation of constantly wanting to go lie down flat on my back in the middle of a public space. not really for attention, more to just get out of myself. out of my head. out of this bubble. if the sky is still moving, if the earth is still turning, then maybe nothing else matters and everything will be okay.

my life and mental state at the moment remind me of this video game where you slide onto a platform that's surrounded by lava on all sides and boulders are rolling down the slide onto the platform and you have to avoid them and avoid being pushed or falling off the cliff or into the lava. the sense of impending doom is constant.

i'm about to fall off a science cliff into a burning sea of lava.

and then there's the OTHER problem...
i kind of want to cut off my right arm. then i would KNOW why he was looking at me like that ALL THE TIME.
i'm kind of infatuated with him. i might also hate him. he's kind of arrogant and insolent and a very bad team player. but those are all qualities i like in a boy. my social skills are seriously NOT coming through. what a shock to us all.

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from: anonymous
date: Dec. 17th, 2009 11:11 pm (UTC)

this the boss level in one of the castles in super mario world. just be happy you aren't in that level, as time is running out and the music is getting faster and faster and it's SO hectic.

i love you pretty hard.

and, he's looking at you because of your amazing rack. just to clear up any ambiguity. come on, your brains are HUGE.

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